Can Atheists Feel Joy?
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13-09-2012, 04:48 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy?
Once I got through the wild depression swing of coming to terms on realizing that everything I knew was wrong... I actually became a lot MORE happy about things.

As I made the transition of deconverting, I found that I was very depressed, very sad and moody like you wouldn't believe. It was because I was having a very hard time of coping with "What, there is no afterlife?" and "So that means I wasn't created? And not created with a purpose? What IS my purpose then?" and all kinds of randomly surfacing thoughts were radically exploding in my mind and it was a total shock for me. For a while, I felt like someone came over, took a huge steamy shit on what I thought was reality and I was left with a heaping plate of hotter, stinkier shit.

As I went through this transition and started to understand things differently, I started to see things from a new perspective...

- I was in charge of my life and I was in charge of finding my own meaning. This was amazing to me.
- The shit that I thought was random acts of god were just... random... if there is no "divine plan" then that means I am the master of my own destiny so to speak.
- No hell? Life is what it is. It wasn't that I had this realization that "sin didn't matter" but that I had nothing to fear when I die. There was none of this "burn in hell forever, or spend forever bored to fucking shit with jesus playing tennis" - I mean come on, forever is a long time.
- I no longer had to fight the most logical arguments in the world to my brain to understand the things that interested me the most. I felt and REALLY THOUGHT that anything that differed from my beliefs were "the devil" and the amount of cognitive dissonance that kept me from my interest in science and technology repelled me to no end. I FINALLY was not afraid to ask hard questions, look for hard answers.
- Reality was reality. Harsh or soft, it was amazing to me either way. Not always what I wanted, but I realize life is literally what it is. Which also gave me a sense of calm, hard to explain.
- No matter what happens in life, I realized that once it's over, there's nothing left to worry about. I will just simply... stop being me. I'll continue on as particles, atoms, part of the universe at some point. But there's nothing to worry about. I didn't worry about this shit before I became human, I won't worry about it after.
- I don't feel shame for being myself. I'm happy. I live my life, I love my wife, I love my family, I don't feel fearful of things anymore. I can be a good person because I feel like it's the right thing to do and because I'm capable of doing so. Not because a book tells me too, not because I feel like I'll deal with eternal punishment if I don't and not because I feel like I'll be rewarded by some ultimate deity... but because I'm human, I can be human and it's the human thing to do. That was a HUGE moment for me. I'm a good person because I CAN be and WANT to be.
- The current way we understand the universe explains that you and I are star dust, that's how we started. Someday, we'll be stardust again. The universe does not give a shit how many lives you change before you get there again. In the grand scheme of things, we're a tiny tiny tiny particle in comparison to the size of the universe. No matter how shitty life can be, I can always look up at the night sky and say... "Hey, that's me." It's an awesome realization when you think about that. How many times can the universe say that? Not sure, but I know I'm part of it! And I know I can Smile

When I wake up and think about these things... it's hard to have a bad day unless I let things get to me or want to have a bad day. But most of the time, I am pretty damn happy. Life is good. I appreciate the life I have. I appreciate the time I have. I have no regret over the fact that someday it will be over, I'm not afraid of the fact that someday it will be over. I'm fine with it. But my only regret is that I don't have more time to enjoy it and see science progress, see humanity progress and at least go to mars or something rad like that. Either way, life is pretty fucking cool.
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Can Atheists Feel Joy? - traceparcet - 12-09-2012, 03:35 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Vosur - 12-09-2012, 11:34 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Chas - 12-09-2012, 11:35 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Hughsie - 12-09-2012, 11:36 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - traceparcet - 12-09-2012, 11:39 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Chas - 12-09-2012, 11:40 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - FSM_scot - 12-09-2012, 11:40 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - traceparcet - 12-09-2012, 11:44 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Bucky Ball - 12-09-2012, 11:45 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - traceparcet - 12-09-2012, 11:48 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Chas - 12-09-2012, 11:50 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - traceparcet - 12-09-2012, 11:52 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Chas - 12-09-2012, 12:02 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - traceparcet - 12-09-2012, 12:05 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Chas - 12-09-2012, 12:07 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - traceparcet - 12-09-2012, 12:13 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Vosur - 12-09-2012, 11:56 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - kim - 12-09-2012, 11:56 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - traceparcet - 12-09-2012, 12:00 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Bucky Ball - 12-09-2012, 12:24 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - traceparcet - 12-09-2012, 12:24 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - traceparcet - 12-09-2012, 12:30 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Erxomai - 12-09-2012, 12:23 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - BnW - 12-09-2012, 12:37 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Erxomai - 12-09-2012, 12:38 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - earmuffs - 12-09-2012, 12:29 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - traceparcet - 12-09-2012, 12:36 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Phaedrus - 12-09-2012, 12:37 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - LadyJane - 12-09-2012, 12:56 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - traceparcet - 12-09-2012, 01:04 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - kim - 12-09-2012, 01:44 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - morondog - 12-09-2012, 02:05 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Phaedrus - 12-09-2012, 01:03 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Chas - 12-09-2012, 01:28 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Phaedrus - 12-09-2012, 02:12 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Luminon - 12-09-2012, 02:07 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Chas - 12-09-2012, 02:11 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Luminon - 13-09-2012, 04:28 AM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - GirlyMan - 12-09-2012, 05:54 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Chas - 12-09-2012, 06:44 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - GirlyMan - 12-09-2012, 09:41 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - zeldamaster17 - 12-09-2012, 06:57 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - LadyJane - 12-09-2012, 07:14 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - zip_ster - 12-09-2012, 08:58 PM
RE: Can Atheists Feel Joy? - Logisch - 13-09-2012 04:48 AM
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