Considering suicide. Over it.

[dancefortwo]

Your brain has been through a lot, Banjo. I'm sure you don't need to be told this. I'm not a medical professional but just using some common sense here. I'd think it will take your brain at least a year to start functioning in a more regular fashion. Please give yourself more time to recover. It really hasn't been that long since you stopped chemo and all your medication.

Much love and thoughts to you. Keep posting what you feel.

[Anjele]

(18-12-2016 06:50 PM)pablo Wrote:  You may think you've lost your edge, but you're still a lot sharper than I am.

Not quite sure what to make of that. Should the bar be set higher?

[Fatbaldhobbit]

(18-12-2016 06:37 PM)Banjo Wrote:  Thanks guys.

I rang a suicide Hotline.

No answer.

At least it wasn't a nice fellow with an Arabic accent, asking if you had a pilot's license...

[jennybee]

(18-12-2016 06:37 PM)Banjo Wrote:  Thanks guys.

I rang a suicide Hotline.

No answer.

Are you trying them again? If they don't answer a second time, let us know and we'll find another hotline or place for you to call.

[Paleophyte]

(1) Give it time. Those drugs sound utterly hellish so it's likely to need time.

(2) Get a second opinion. You're probably a damned sight smarter than you know. Remember Dunning-Kruger.

(3) Fuck it. You're still faster than 90% of the population even with a chemo-hangover.

[earmuffs]

Banjo.. you are seriously overestimating the stupidity of the average person.
You could lose 50 points of IQ and still be the smartest man in the room. Think about that, they literally have to pump your brain with some pretty nasty shit just so they can even get close to standing a chance. Calling yourself stupid is the stupidest shit I've ever seen you say.

You gotta keep going man. What happens if you win? You're gonna look back and be pretty damn thankful you didn't knock yourself off.
If you feel you're confused sometimes that's fine, let us tell you that you are being thinking confused right now.

[skyking]

(18-12-2016 06:50 PM)pablo Wrote:  You may think you've lost your edge, but you're still a lot sharper than I am.

You and me both, brother. he knows his shit on many subjects.

[jennybee]

Anyone hear from Banjo?

[Fireball]

(18-12-2016 06:37 PM)Banjo Wrote:  Thanks guys.

I rang a suicide Hotline.

No answer.

They didn't ask you if you could drive a truck?!?

[Old Man Marsh]

(18-12-2016 06:03 PM)Banjo Wrote:  Hey guys.

Well my brain is not working. I had hoped it would return with some sharpness, but this is not the case. I laid the blame on the experimental drug but now believe it was destroyed by the massive amount of chemotherapy I endured.

I am basically stupid. Slow, confused all the time and just not right in the head.

I am wondering if I can take a life of this. If not I am just gonna fucking kill myself.

BTW, I'm deadly serious.

Thoughts?

We'll always love you no matter what, my friend.