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25-04-2013, 11:42 AM
Hm.
Boredom
That’s what always starts it.

Not having anything to do, but lay there and think about all the problems
in yourself and in your life.

You get to thinking and realize
I hate everything about myself.

You find yourself reaching for a blade
and dragging it across your fragile, pale skin.

Blood dripping out.
so much

You pass out
to not only see the scars in the morning,
but realizing…

What if I never get help?
Do I even want help?

Honestly, I don’t know if I can answer either of these.
I just want to give up..
forever

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25-04-2013, 11:46 AM
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Ummm.

A poem?

Or, is this for real?

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25-04-2013, 11:50 AM
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(25-04-2013 11:46 AM)kingschosen Wrote:  Ummm.

A poem?

Or, is this for real?

It's real, KC.

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25-04-2013, 11:52 AM
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(25-04-2013 11:50 AM)legendoflink Wrote:  
(25-04-2013 11:46 AM)kingschosen Wrote:  Ummm.

A poem?

Or, is this for real?

It's real, KC.

I'm assuming you've already sought help for this, right?

I don't understand the psychology behind cutting. Would you be able to explain to me why you do it? How does it make you feel?

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25-04-2013, 11:52 AM
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It IS real, or it was real ?

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25-04-2013, 11:53 AM
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(25-04-2013 11:52 AM)kingschosen Wrote:  I don't understand the psychology behind cutting. Would you be able to explain to me why you do it? How does it make you feel?

I guess you could say it's my temporarily relief.
The blood and pain shows me that I'm still alive, though I feel dead.
Once that first cut is placed, my mind only thinks about that and not my hate for myself.

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25-04-2013, 11:54 AM
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(25-04-2013 11:52 AM)HU.Junyuan Wrote:  It IS real, or it was real ?

IS.

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25-04-2013, 11:57 AM
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(25-04-2013 11:53 AM)legendoflink Wrote:  
(25-04-2013 11:52 AM)kingschosen Wrote:  I don't understand the psychology behind cutting. Would you be able to explain to me why you do it? How does it make you feel?

I guess you could say it's my temporarily relief.
The blood and pain shows me that I'm still alive, though I feel dead.
Once that first cut is placed, my mind only thinks about that and not my hate for myself.

Why do you feel dead? Why do you hate yourself?

Also, are you at least disinfecting the blade? Putting Neosporin and bandages on the cuts to prevent infection?

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25-04-2013, 12:00 PM
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(25-04-2013 11:54 AM)legendoflink Wrote:  
(25-04-2013 11:52 AM)HU.Junyuan Wrote:  It IS real, or it was real ?

IS.

OK. What you think is an intriguing question indeed. It may also be a problematic thing.

What if you put this question/problem right next to you and watch it withering and ultimately dissolving into the empty air?

What if the boredom just quietly went away without your notice?

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25-04-2013, 12:04 PM
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(25-04-2013 11:53 AM)legendoflink Wrote:  
(25-04-2013 11:52 AM)kingschosen Wrote:  I don't understand the psychology behind cutting. Would you be able to explain to me why you do it? How does it make you feel?

I guess you could say it's my temporarily relief.
The blood and pain shows me that I'm still alive, though I feel dead.
Once that first cut is placed, my mind only thinks about that and not my hate for myself.

I see that you still love yourself as much. You are just showing it in a different way. Showing that love in such a way is OK. Do you think it's better to show it in some way else?

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