I hate myself and want to die. A love story by Highlander.
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24-03-2014, 07:21 AM (This post was last modified: 24-03-2014 07:59 AM by Highlander.)
Exclamation I hate myself and want to die. A love story by Highlander.
I hate myself and want to die. A love story.

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You've gained consciousness. The infuriating grind of your phone on the bedside, each buzz screaming at you to wake up. Wake up! Open your eyes and see the light.

Get out of bed, follow the same ritual you've done every day for the past however many days of your working life. You're free, repeat after me.

Prepare your bitter, over-brewed percolated coffee because you're an American and that's your morning beverage of choice! If you're feeling particularly cheerful you might actually make your decaying corpse some food once you get out of the shower to wash that wretched stench off your pasty skin. Who knows, maybe it'll taste better than the take away?

You're alive!

Only... not quite. You don't own your house, the bank does. You work the vast majority of your life and convince yourself that anything else wouldn't be desirable. Keep the carrot on a stick.


Retirement!

One day you'll be old, senile, immobile, and barely cognitively functioning. That'll be when you finally get to see the world through those busted up cataracts of yours behind the intensely magnified glasses your doctor prescribed you.

Can you feel it yet?


This isn't about atheism or God. Not about the time your waste posting on a forum nobody cares about. In ten years time this forum will be yet another in a long line of Internet relics. People may read the archives every now and again going.

First post: 20th June 2005

You're an old, old man already. You made that post a young, pissed off atheist who finally 'woke up'. But now you're old. Old and dead.

Dead.

And you weren't even alive!

You were born too short to be tall, let alone even average. Face is sub 8/10 (sub8). You began balding. So much for going grey, chrome dome! It's over before it began! Life. God. Whatever is out there, spat right in your FUCKING FACE the moment you came out.

You were born a slave. A slave to your circumstances. Your country. Your family. Your faith. Your FACE.

Nobody comes out of this alive.

Hardly anybody comes in alive.

Cradle to the grave we're born to slave.






....


Good thing we found this forum. Found atheism. Now it's time to take a break from it all, enter the echo chamber, and talk about how we not only failed to master life. We failed to fit in.

This ain't about the friends you make, the jobs you take. But the things they write on your grave. You're a god damn slave!


I need. To fit. In.


If I didn't have an enemy I'd be the enemy. I'd hate myself and want to die.

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24-03-2014, 08:17 AM
RE: I hate myself and want to die. A love story by Highlander.
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24-03-2014, 08:25 AM
RE: I hate myself and want to die. A love story by Highlander.
"You only live once, but you spend your whole life dying."

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24-03-2014, 08:29 AM
RE: I hate myself and want to die. A love story by Highlander.
(24-03-2014 08:25 AM)Im_Ryan Wrote:  "You only live once, but you spend your whole life dying."

Thinking most people even come close to living is blue pill delusion.
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24-03-2014, 08:32 AM
RE: I hate myself and want to die. A love story by Highlander.
(24-03-2014 08:29 AM)Highlander Wrote:  
(24-03-2014 08:25 AM)Im_Ryan Wrote:  "You only live once, but you spend your whole life dying."

Thinking most people even come close to living is blue pill delusion.

Agreed, but there are the few.

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24-03-2014, 08:39 AM
RE: I hate myself and want to die. A love story by Highlander.
So you're spamming us now?

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24-03-2014, 08:40 AM
RE: I hate myself and want to die. A love story by Highlander.
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24-03-2014, 08:41 AM
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(24-03-2014 08:29 AM)Highlander Wrote:  
(24-03-2014 08:25 AM)Im_Ryan Wrote:  "You only live once, but you spend your whole life dying."

Thinking most people even come close to living is blue pill delusion.

Now, don't quote me on this, but...

I am reasonably certain that most people are indeed living.

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24-03-2014, 08:43 AM
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(24-03-2014 08:40 AM)Crulax Wrote:  [Image: f_f99a2a68ae.jpg]

Vaginas are emo?

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24-03-2014, 08:43 AM
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(24-03-2014 08:41 AM)Free Thought Wrote:  
(24-03-2014 08:29 AM)Highlander Wrote:  Thinking most people even come close to living is blue pill delusion.

Now, don't quote me on this, but...

I am reasonably certain that most people are indeed living.

No, it's like that "are you alive or just breathing?" statement. Most people just go through their lives not really taking the time to actually live it.

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