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28-11-2016, 01:21 PM
I'm frustrated
So some may now (if following my weightloss thread) that I am currently working on my weightloss.
I am not sure if I ever said that I have been trying that for the past 5 years.
Unsuccessful.
The only things that worked were unreasonably extreme diets. But eating healthy and being active has had me gain more and more (instead of holding weight).

So naturally I started doing some research of my own and came to the conclusion that one of the possible reasons that I cannot lose weight, might be my thyroids. I just never had the money to go and get my blood tested.

Then last summer my legs started swelling. So again I did some research and found that I have water in my legs. I thought it was because the summer was unusually hot, so I waited for autumn to see if it goes away. Well it did not go away.
So during my Halloween PTO I went to the doctor to get my legs checked.

This is where the fun starts. So he gave me a list of test that had to be done.
Blood and urine at his practice
24 hr urine collection for protein levels
ECG
Holter monitor 24 hrs
Stress test
Echo heart scan
CT scan
X-Ray

So finally all of those are done and I spent way more money than I can afford. Indeed I spent so much money on the tests that I had to ask my landlord if I can pay this month's rent next month together with next month's rent (because that is when Mr.Leela gets his first sallary). Lucky me that my landlord is a very good person and was fine with this arrangement because otherwise I'd not just go hungry but actually have a minus on my bank account now.

So today I went to the doctor to get my results.
My heart is fine - phew. I was afraid it might be something there because it's in the family. But got lucky there. And that is the one thing I got lucky with.

So let's get to what I did not get lucky with.
First of all, he cannot find the root cause of my water retention yet. But at least we are closing in on it.
So I need 3 more tests but it will take a while to get the appointments at the hospital.

He found that my Thyroids have low function and this is likely the cause that I cannot lose weight. The resulting fat wobbly me now has high cholesterol and a fatty liver (or kidney? At some point he lost me).
You know how frustrating it is to know that for the past 5 years I have become fatter and fatter while doing everything I can to lose weight and get back to normal? I had no money to pay a doctor to intervene and now I have so much wrong with me.
So that is not all though.
They found in the CT scan that I also have swollen ovaries or something. Might be cysts might be something else. Who the fuck knows at this point. I had an ultrasound two years ago and everything was fine. He wants me to have an ultrasound again now to see what is going on in there.
He also needs me to go to a liver (or kidney?) specialist.
He also needs me to go to a thyroid specialist.
He asked me if I wanted to go private or public. I am trying to have as much as possible public because I am not a rich motherfucker to pay all of this. Just means I have to wait for the appointment a bit longer I guess.

Anyway, I almost lost it at the doctor when he told me I need to eat healthy and exersize. I sat there with my fucking bike helmet - pointed at it while telling him that I cycle 5 days a week and walk two days a week and have been trying to loose weight forever. There is simply no more I can do. I am not sure if he believed me but he said the medicine for the thyroids should help.

So yea I got prescriptions for the water, thyroids, Vitamine D (that apparently most people in Ireland lack because no sun), and a sleeping medication so I can finally sleep.

Yea so just wanted to share my frustration... Sorry for the novel... whatever, I'm gonna play some computer games and calm down.

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28-11-2016, 01:26 PM
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I only have a moment but I wanted to say that you may be very pleasantly surprised at how much good balancing your thyroid can be.

I hope you get results you are looking for. Thumbsup

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28-11-2016, 01:30 PM
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As usual, Anjele is right. It might be a long road to get there, but my mom has hypothyroidism (low thyroid response), and as a result is quite overweight, no matter how she diets and/or exercises. It also made her moody and depressed, for years. Also a lot of doctors, tests, and medicine changes while they struggled to get it balanced again.

Once she got it fixed, she went on to lose a bunch of the weight she had gained (though she's still a big lady), went back to college and got her PhD, and went from being a schoolteacher to a professor. 20 years later, she retired with tenure and took a part-time job teaching at another university because she loves it so much.

Total life change. We wish you the best in your struggle against your own body, Leela. *hugs*

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28-11-2016, 05:56 PM
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28-11-2016, 07:36 PM
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You're doing everything you should be doing. The only other thing I could suggest is possibly seeing a nutritionist. All of what you are doing is going to take some time. Stay focused, keep cutting calories, and exercising, take the meds your dr. prescribed and all of it will come together. And most importantly, love yourself now, don't beat yourself up for not being a size 2. You are trying to make some serious life changes and you're doing it! Be proud of that. This time next year, you're going to look even more amazing than you already do. Keep on, keepin; on Leela, you got this. *hugs*

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29-11-2016, 03:30 AM
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Thank you for sharing your results and frustration with us Smile
I can understand why it's frustrating, but at least now you know you have a thyroid issue, and you'll finally treat it. Considering how important the thyroid is for the metabolism and the mood, it will help you greatly, you'll definitely see a positive result.
Also, I don't think you wasted 5 years doing a healthy diet that as no visible effect, I mean, it can only be good for your health, and even though some effects might not have been visible, maybe your cholesterol would have been higher without the diet.
So I think you did very well, and you can congratulate yourself for such perseverance !
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29-11-2016, 08:22 PM
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(28-11-2016 01:21 PM)Leela Wrote:  Anyway, I almost lost it at the doctor when he told me I need to eat healthy and exersize.

Right I'm with you on that, read my 2014 essay if you want. You're completely right, thyroid function and diabetes can make weight-loss even more difficult than it already is - if not impossible for some people. If you do 2 hours or more rigorous exercise per day then it is associated with weight-loss (partly because it suppresses appetite). That level of exercise is nearly impossible for most people, and 30 minutes of exercise per day is enough to keep you fit, but IIRC not enough to be associated on its own with weight-loss.

Anyway, best of luck.

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01-12-2016, 05:23 PM
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Just an update on the OP from a few days ago.

So it is Thursday night and honestly I feel a lot better now.

I can tell, even after the few days on medication, that things are already getting much better.

Water in the legs: Has gone down but is still there. I guess it will take a while but my legs start feeling better and less squeezed from socks.
Stomach: I had noticed, during the past few months, that my stomach became more and more stretched and had gotten a very bad unhealthy colour. The discolouration is starting to go away and the stomach is not as stretched anymore.
Cholesterol: While I am sure that the levels are still bad - duh - it is not difficult for me to adjust my diet. The majority of my diet is already low cholesterol so there are only small adjustments and they come easy to me as I naturally dislike most high-cholesterol foods (exclude chocolate but then again I am allergic to chocolate anyway)
Thyroid medicine: Some people here had already told me that I should feel better on many levels once I take the medicine. At this point I can agree. I don't have this unreasonable appetite for everything anymore. Result of that is me eating much less without being hungry. I am also feeling a bit fitter or energetic... Not sure how to express it. Just less sloth Big Grin
Vitamin D : The doctor had told me that getting my Vitamin D under control will help my energy levels as well and so far it does. I am not super energetic yet but I can certainly tell a difference.
Sleeping medicine: I think this is what helps bring everything together at this point. The fact that I can finally sleep. Still takes me a while to fall asleep. But I can at least attempt to go to bed at a normal time now. And I am not waking up a million times any more. I just sleep through. So I feel a bit fresher in the morning. I am not in a horrible mood in the morning, I can perform at work from the moment I get there. I also feel less depressed and less anxious right now. I still have some things that cause me to be anxious but I feel a bit less vulnurable if that makes sense.

So yea over all I am doing better. Now I am just waiting for my (hopefully) last few appointments at the hospital but that might take a while.
I still have some concerns. Right at the top is the thing with my ovaries and me being unsure if I should try for a baby right now because abortion is illegal in Ireland so if anything goes wrong, I'd have to fly to the UK or Germany or so, to get that done. Then again, right now I feel like just giving it a shot and seeing what happens. I got only one life, so why not try.

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01-12-2016, 05:28 PM
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(28-11-2016 01:21 PM)Leela Wrote:  So some may now (if following my weightloss thread) that I am currently working on my weightloss.
I am not sure if I ever said that I have been trying that for the past 5 years.
Unsuccessful.
The only things that worked were unreasonably extreme diets. But eating healthy and being active has had me gain more and more (instead of holding weight).

So naturally I started doing some research of my own and came to the conclusion that one of the possible reasons that I cannot lose weight, might be my thyroids. I just never had the money to go and get my blood tested.

Then last summer my legs started swelling. So again I did some research and found that I have water in my legs. I thought it was because the summer was unusually hot, so I waited for autumn to see if it goes away. Well it did not go away.
So during my Halloween PTO I went to the doctor to get my legs checked.

This is where the fun starts. So he gave me a list of test that had to be done.
Blood and urine at his practice
24 hr urine collection for protein levels
ECG
Holter monitor 24 hrs
Stress test
Echo heart scan
CT scan
X-Ray

So finally all of those are done and I spent way more money than I can afford. Indeed I spent so much money on the tests that I had to ask my landlord if I can pay this month's rent next month together with next month's rent (because that is when Mr.Leela gets his first sallary). Lucky me that my landlord is a very good person and was fine with this arrangement because otherwise I'd not just go hungry but actually have a minus on my bank account now.

So today I went to the doctor to get my results.
My heart is fine - phew. I was afraid it might be something there because it's in the family. But got lucky there. And that is the one thing I got lucky with.

So let's get to what I did not get lucky with.
First of all, he cannot find the root cause of my water retention yet. But at least we are closing in on it.
So I need 3 more tests but it will take a while to get the appointments at the hospital.

He found that my Thyroids have low function and this is likely the cause that I cannot lose weight. The resulting fat wobbly me now has high cholesterol and a fatty liver (or kidney? At some point he lost me).
You know how frustrating it is to know that for the past 5 years I have become fatter and fatter while doing everything I can to lose weight and get back to normal? I had no money to pay a doctor to intervene and now I have so much wrong with me.
So that is not all though.
They found in the CT scan that I also have swollen ovaries or something. Might be cysts might be something else. Who the fuck knows at this point. I had an ultrasound two years ago and everything was fine. He wants me to have an ultrasound again now to see what is going on in there.
He also needs me to go to a liver (or kidney?) specialist.
He also needs me to go to a thyroid specialist.
He asked me if I wanted to go private or public. I am trying to have as much as possible public because I am not a rich motherfucker to pay all of this. Just means I have to wait for the appointment a bit longer I guess.

Anyway, I almost lost it at the doctor when he told me I need to eat healthy and exersize. I sat there with my fucking bike helmet - pointed at it while telling him that I cycle 5 days a week and walk two days a week and have been trying to loose weight forever. There is simply no more I can do. I am not sure if he believed me but he said the medicine for the thyroids should help.

So yea I got prescriptions for the water, thyroids, Vitamine D (that apparently most people in Ireland lack because no sun), and a sleeping medication so I can finally sleep.

Yea so just wanted to share my frustration... Sorry for the novel... whatever, I'm gonna play some computer games and calm down.

Go for a short walk instead, it helps to clear your mind.
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01-12-2016, 05:30 PM
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(01-12-2016 05:28 PM)PaddyOdoors Wrote:  Go for a short walk instead, it helps to clear your mind.
Look at my post right above your answer Wink thanks though

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