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05-08-2013, 03:11 PM
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Hello, I am 38yrs old and currently live in southern part of the U.S. I am just starting my journey to becoming an Atheist. I love this site! Everyone appears to be very helpful. I grew up in a very religious home. I still have no plans on telling my parents about my views because I know it would break their hearts. I have a 20 year old son and it wasn't until he and I started talking about religion and his beliefs that I realized I no longer believed in god. I am at a point in my life where I want to learn. I feel like my eyes have been closed until now. Now it's time to live my life for me!
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05-08-2013, 08:09 PM
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Hi.

I am a 34 year old male and Army National Guardsman. I was raised southern baptist in a very southern baptist place by a very southern baptist family. As long as I can remember, I've been skeptical.
I played the theist game and towed the line simply because I was scared not to. To this day the only people I am out as an atheist to, are my wonderful wife, and some close gamer friends.
Thanks.
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06-08-2013, 02:58 AM
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[/font]I am 27 yr old male. I currently reside in central Los Angeles, CA. I am an Atheist, Existentialist, Philosopher, Psychologist, Minimalist and Intellectual...of course all self-professed.
Started off the child of a hooker. Father left at 3yrs. From 4yrs-16yrs, resided in the custody of a physically, verbally, and psychologically abusive grandmother, all the while exhibiting tremendous academic potential (as well as athletic). An abundance of female figures combined with the absence of male figures would bring on sexual identity crisis at around 13yrs old. Family life was sheltered. Relatives were dysfunctional. Alcoholism rampant. Drug addiction from majority of aunts and uncles. Grandmother herself a victim of child sexual abuse and old fashion mother who turned the other way, and grew up to be involved in 2 very physically abusive marriages.
Left "home" at 16yrs old...to the open arms of a meth smoking alcoholic mother (still going strong after more than 30 years of crack, speed, hooking, and alcoholism), where I enjoyed new found freedom and friends, alcohol and marijuana for about 5-6 month, at which time, on a late night of cleaning my mother’s home (which was a garage), at 2am, I suggested we resume the next day, due to fatigue. She then, poured some white crystal powder, and suggested I try crystal meth. Unassuming and carefree (or carelessly), I did so, beginning a process that would change more than my life. Stopped the drinking, stopped the weed. Meth would initially feed the sexuality and sexual identity crisis, along with years of teenage sexual deviancy, and would become the sole thing I lived for. Eventually I would stop after a few years, become involved in my first real relationship, only to travel to Kansas City and become highly addicted to Crack Cocaine. What meth took years to accomplish, crack took months. The major difference is the toll meth takes on the human mind, while crack's affects, for me, were all physical. Upon returning to California, and my mother, the meth journey had only just begun. No longer attached to any sexual identity crisis, thanks in large part to the psychological stimulation of being in love with a girl in the afore mention relationship, the sexual deviancy for women and porn was insatiable, being alone for weeks at a time, with an abundance of meth, porn and cigarettes, no sleep, no water, no food, no showering. Every few months I would get sober, get better, get a job. But every time, my brain, my mind, would ever so slightly become altered. Then, the trips to the e.r. would begin, not for physical reasons, but for mental psychosis.
All my life, I have always, no matter the period, have maintained an adamant interest in all things academic. Literature, Physics, mathematics, chemistry, zoology, geography, cosmology, astronomy, computer science, among others, and of course music: classical, ambient, jazz,
Metal (yes I am an elitist), alt/rock.
From what I know about meth, along with the typical physical effects, weight loss, skin complications etc, it is said to change the composition of your brain. NOW THINK ABOUT THAT. The composition of my brain? I can attest that the last time I had a drug induced psychosis, when I was released from USC medical center, I was not the same. Not worse, but not the same. I met my wife about 9 months later, on a bus. She was 27, a virgin, from a really good Hispanic catholic family, no abuse, no dysfunction. I have not used meth in more than three years, but despite a 'normal life', marriage, employment, money, a 7 month old boy, I miss it all, in a familiar way. Thankfully I am not so sexually desensitized anymore, and I have tediously opened my wife up to be a more sexually free person, despite her traditional upbringing. I am a bit lucky, physically; you wouldn’t ever guess that I was once ever 100lbs (5'10"), asking for change, blowing crack dealers for my next hit. I work out, I have no trouble attracting really good looking women, nor do I have any homosexual latency, nor am I uncomfortable with being open minded in bed.
Now, for me, I exist, and as Sartre before me, it is my only problem. Why do I exist, why am I aware of my own existence. I have thoughts, I can feel. How is this all possible? I dread being dead. With so many theories and religions, of which none have a single shred of irrefutable proof, there is only one for me. The thought, that the possibility of nothing happening when I die, that my mind ceases to produce thought, that there is no afterlife, no propose, nothing, the chance that this is a possibility, means I am an atheist. I pass by the cemetery near my apt, and it is sickening. Sure, there might be a guy in a robe, an alien mother ship far away, some parallel universe(s), reincarnation, but there might also be nothing, and that single thought process has enlightened me. Sorry for the long post, but it’s what came to mind when I stumbled across this site.
For those interested in knowing, it's more than 3 years of sobriety, no cigs for 3 years (only because it would be highly unintelligent to due such a thing as smoking cancer sticks, because i actually liked smoking.) I am now stuck with acute Social anxiety (my muse), and a few cavities due to meth. 99% of addicts are not so fortunate as am I.
DO NOT USE. most end up with irreparable mental and physical damage, along with the hardknock life that comes with usage.
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07-08-2013, 01:09 AM
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Hi, I am 19 and was raised as a Jehovah's Witness. I have always been skeptical despite being heavily indoctrinated from birth. I don't think I ever truly believed in God but I would always play along and try not to think about it too much and never ask questions, to please my parents. I was baptized last year in a further attempt to keep my family and the congregation happy. Which was probably a huge mistake and will make it all the more difficult to leave one day.

I still go to meetings and my family doesn't know yet that I am an unbeliever. Being shunned by my family thanks to disfellowshipping, and the affects it will have on my parents are the only reasons I haven't left yet. In the last year after digging deep, researching more and realizing the complete absurdity of it all, I am finally starting to think of myself as an atheist. Although I continue playing along for now I yearn for the day when I move out on my own and will be able to "fade" out of the organization and hopefully avoid being disfellowshipped.
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07-08-2013, 07:13 AM (This post was last modified: 07-08-2013 08:05 AM by cheapthrillseaker.)
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(07-08-2013 01:09 AM)Yvette Wrote:  Hi, I am 19 and was raised as a Jehovah's Witness. I have always been skeptical despite being heavily indoctrinated from birth. I don't think I ever truly believed in God but I would always play along and try not to think about it too much and never ask questions, to please my parents. I was baptized last year in a further attempt to keep my family and the congregation happy. Which was probably a huge mistake and will make it all the more difficult to leave one day.

I still go to meetings and my family doesn't know yet that I am an unbeliever. Being shunned by my family thanks to disfellowshipping, and the affects it will have on my parents are the only reasons I haven't left yet. In the last year after digging deep, researching more and realizing the complete absurdity of it all, I am finally starting to think of myself as an atheist. Although I continue playing along for now I yearn for the day when I move out on my own and will be able to "fade" out of the organization and hopefully avoid being disfellowshipped.
Welcome to the forum, Yvette.

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. I was in your shoes, once. "Fading", or becoming "Inactive"is probably the best bet for you. There are ways you can force, if it comes to it, to keep the elders from announcing anything publicly to the congregation (shunning announcements aren't only for those who are disfellowshipped.).

There are several ex members of the witnesses here. You're not alone. Hug

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07-08-2013, 08:36 AM
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I am Jay, a 47 year old atheist living in Florida. The short story is I have a Catholic background but I'm not sure I ever really believed. I am very fortunate in that coming out as an atheist has not cost me any family or friends. I am active on Facebook, Twitter and other online sites but in my daily life I rarely discuss religion or my beliefs. If the subject comes up I will say my peace but it rarely does.

I seek out apologists and arguments FOR god because I really want to understand where the believers are coming from. I want to make sure my atheism is solid and that I truly understand differing world views.

No religion, belief system or person as THE answer to everything. I immediately distrust anyone who makes that claim.
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07-08-2013, 04:03 PM
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(07-08-2013 07:13 AM)cheapthrillseaker Wrote:  Welcome to the forum, Yvette.

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. I was in your shoes, once. "Fading", or becoming "Inactive"is probably the best bet for you. There are ways you can force, if it comes to it, to keep the elders from announcing anything publicly to the congregation (shunning announcements aren't only for those who are disfellowshipped.).

There are several ex members of the witnesses here. You're not alone. Hug

Thank you for the welcome! It is so nice to finally be able to talk about it amongst others who have had similar experiences.

I know the elders will make announcements if you are either "disfellowshipped" or "disassociated" (Although they no longer clarify which one). But I would love to hear of ways you can prevent them from announcing it! It would be a weight off my mind if I knew of a way to make sure it couldn't happen.
I can't wait for a podcast about the Jehovah's Witnesses!
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08-08-2013, 08:28 PM
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Hi,

I'm 49 and I've considered myself atheist for about 2 years. But I've been a doubter since I was about 6, and I've always felt I did not fit in. Prior to that, I think I was just intimidated by Catholicism. I'm not out, and probably won't be for a long time, it's complicated. My wife, daughter and brother know, but no one else. I've been listening to every Atheist podcast I can get my hands on and finally I understand that the stuff going through my head is not that strange. It is most every one else I know that is deluded, not me.

IAreRight is just a play on my name, I have no problem admitting when IAreWrong.
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08-08-2013, 08:29 PM
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(08-08-2013 08:28 PM)IAreRight Wrote:  Hi,

I'm 49 and I've considered myself atheist for about 2 years. But I've been a doubter since I was about 6, and I've always felt I did not fit in. Prior to that, I think I was just intimidated by Catholicism. I'm not out, and probably won't be for a long time, it's complicated. My wife, daughter and brother know, but no one else. I've been listening to every Atheist podcast I can get my hands on and finally I understand that the stuff going through my head is not that strange. It is most every one else I know that is deluded, not me.

IAreRight is just a play on my name, I have no problem admitting when IAreWrong.

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Welcome to the forum dude. Smile

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08-08-2013, 08:53 PM
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Hi. My name is Natalie, and I'm an atheist. It's been 6 years since I've been a practicing believer, and a little over a month since I could finally call myself an atheist.

I'm a complete 100% newbie when it comes to all things atheism. All my current knowledge comes from the wonderful TTA podcast, and I have just started "The God Delusion" by Richard Dawkins. I come from a very religious family, and although my brother and I have strayed from the family faith, my father and sister are very devout Christians. I have a lot of Christian friends who probably have no idea I have "strayed" from the church. But the truth is, I always felt like I was a fraud. I never felt anything and I always thought I wasn't trying hard enough, and I wasn't doing it right. A friend that I attended church with went on to work for the illustrious (and criminal) Kent Hovind. Those are the kind of people I deal with on a daily basis, and I want to pull my hair out. I am very fortunate to have my amazing boyfriend, who is an atheist as well.
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