Just recently realized that I'm both atheist and gay.....

[jason197754]

I just did lol....

[KidCharlemagne1962]

Welcome to aboard!

[jason197754]

Thank you everyone....

[jennybee]

Still says u r at full pm capacity. did u dump them in the trash bin?

[jason197754]

Yes I did...

[jennybee]

hmmm keeps saying u reached quota and can't send pm....

[Peebothuhul]

(22-11-2015 08:37 PM)jason197754 Wrote:  I'm 38 and single...never been married....for a while recently I thought I was bisexual....but I was only in denial and self-loathing and felt miserable and horrible.......so yesterday I talked with someone on the lgbt hotline and I took a sexual orientation test online...the test results said that I'm gay.....And at that moment I came out of denial.......but I felt shocked.....I'm still in the closet with my family and friends about it... And I also discovered that my Mom just might have always had NPD...narcissistic personality disorder...I don't live with her anymore...she's 61 and her Dad died earlier this year...She has a boyfriend....
So that's where I'm at right now...I was raised baptist by my Mom and I even lived in Mexico as a missionary for about 8 years in my 20s. Then I tried evangelical and nondenominational churches for a while and even a lgbt friendly church for a few months....Then finally I became Catholic...and even thought about becoming a monk or a priest....But I had a lot of dkubts and questions in my mind....and btw...I never really believd in hell....so as a catholic I was a universalist..,but at the same time I noticed that the catholic church is always asking for money.....and they seem to snub poor people....and then going to confession just started to seem dumb and silly to me...,especially about masturbation and porn....and the masd is beautiful but borring and hypnotic....and nowcI consider myself to be a recovering catholic...

Hello!

[adey67]

Welcome to TTA there are some seriously good people on here who will give you good advice. Congratulations on coming out btw, although I'm not gay I would imagine that being closeted is difficult and an uncomfortable place to be.

[Clockwork]

I can't really offer much advice. What I can say is you've taken a big step in admitting it, even if it's to yourself or to us strangers. Is there a local support group?

[jason197754]

Thank you everyone.,,.but could you qll give me some practical steps that I can take???