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18-11-2015, 04:41 AM (This post was last modified: 18-11-2015 05:14 AM by MrKrispy601.)
Not feeling...anything
I don't sleep a lot anymore. Night time is way too quiet and days too noisy. When I try and close my eyes I see so many random images. Some are traumatic like past things I've actually seen or random figures. Some are just random like the horses face I saw last night. I don't really enjoy too much anymore either. It's so hard to knowing that's it's meaningless. Yes I know that life is what you make it but what's the point when what you make of it will be wiped from existence eventually? There are good days don't get me wrong but they are starting to be outweighed by the bad ones. Days where I can't stand people and their perpetual bullshit. You know the whole positivity bullshit. I wonder if those people know how bad everything is and they are just trying to cover it up too? Part of me wishes I could go back to that outlook on life ya know.

I've also completely lost my wife. She's taken too much of this and I can tell she's just as depressed as I am because she thinks that if she's not helping she's not doing her wifely duty. We don't really talk and we sleep in separate rooms most of the time. We aren't made at each other and we do love each other but all of this gets exhausting.
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18-11-2015, 05:47 AM
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(18-11-2015 04:41 AM)MrKrispy601 Wrote:  I don't sleep a lot anymore. Night time is way too quiet and days too noisy. When I try and close my eyes I see so many random images. Some are traumatic like past things I've actually seen or random figures. Some are just random like the horses face I saw last night. I don't really enjoy too much anymore either. It's so hard to knowing that's it's meaningless. Yes I know that life is what you make it but what's the point when what you make of it will be wiped from existence eventually?
There's no point Smile That's why it's fun.

Quote:There are good days don't get me wrong but they are starting to be outweighed by the bad ones. Days where I can't stand people and their perpetual bullshit. You know the whole positivity bullshit. I wonder if those people know how bad everything is and they are just trying to cover it up too? Part of me wishes I could go back to that outlook on life ya know.
For the moment I'm one of those positivity bullshit guys - maybe it'll change, who knows. I know shit's bad. I know people have shit lives. Here I sit, doing nothing about it. I *ignore* it. Not completely. I'm willing to help out. But if I let myself be crushed, then no one gets helped. On the other hand, my own life, I try to make sure I treat myself well. I am in a fortunate position that I am able to do that.

Quote:I've also completely lost my wife. She's taken too much of this and I can tell she's just as depressed as I am because she thinks that if she's not helping she's not doing her wifely duty. We don't really talk and we sleep in separate rooms most of the time. We aren't made at each other and we do love each other but all of this gets exhausting.
So... I suggest to take a breather. Decide to not think about it for an hour. If you catch yourself doing so, just refuse. Stop. If you sit and think for an hour how shit life is, will it change? No? Then why not just go do something you enjoy, or think about something you enjoy, or watch porn, or (if she's keen) cuddle your wife for an hour? You can resume feeling shit after an hour and you won't have lost anything Smile

It's rough being depressed man, another thing you could do well to investigate is whether you have treatment options. Get this. It's nothing to be ashamed of. It's a disease like having flu. It's not your fault any more than catching flu is your fault. But similar to how flu sometimes needs a bit of medication to properly give it the boot, the same applies to depression. Hie thyself to a physician and get treated.

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18-11-2015, 06:24 AM
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Get someone to kick you in the nuts. Your thoughts on feelings may change.

Nothing wrong with positive feelings. Positivity engages change and progress. If you lean toward the negative, that is your choice, and will get you nowhere.

Am unable to comment on your wife.

Some people have cancer and are fighting for their lives. My advice is: wake up to yourself. Stop being a weak sad sack and grow some balls.

Sorry if this seems harsh. But often tough love works. Sometimes not...

If you have your health, then get on with this one life you have been lucky enough to live. Don't waste your time on earth.

Some cannot sleep due to excessive pain and illness. Consider yourself lucky.

Good luck. I honestly wish you well and hope you get through this.

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18-11-2015, 06:36 AM
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(18-11-2015 06:24 AM)Banjo Wrote:  Get someone to kick you in the nuts. Your thoughts on feelings may change.

Nothing wrong with positive feelings. Positivity engages change and progress. If you lean toward the negative, that is your choice, and will get you nowhere.

Am unable to comment on your wife.

Some people have cancer and are fighting for their lives. My advice is: wake up to yourself. Stop being a weak sad sack and grow some balls.

Sorry if this seems harsh. But often tough love works. Sometimes not...

If you have your health, then get on with this one life you have been lucky enough to live. Don't waste your time on earth.

Some cannot sleep due to excessive pain and illness. Consider yourself lucky.

Good luck. I honestly wish you well and hope you get through this.

I think I need to clarify why I posted. I'm not feeling bad about any of this. I'm not even sad behind it. I don't care about any of this any longer but I don't want to off myself. I'm just indifferent. I posted more so just to vent.
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18-11-2015, 06:37 AM
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(18-11-2015 06:36 AM)MrKrispy601 Wrote:  
(18-11-2015 06:24 AM)Banjo Wrote:  Get someone to kick you in the nuts. Your thoughts on feelings may change.

Nothing wrong with positive feelings. Positivity engages change and progress. If you lean toward the negative, that is your choice, and will get you nowhere.

Am unable to comment on your wife.

Some people have cancer and are fighting for their lives. My advice is: wake up to yourself. Stop being a weak sad sack and grow some balls.

Sorry if this seems harsh. But often tough love works. Sometimes not...

If you have your health, then get on with this one life you have been lucky enough to live. Don't waste your time on earth.

Some cannot sleep due to excessive pain and illness. Consider yourself lucky.

Good luck. I honestly wish you well and hope you get through this.

I think I need to clarify why I posted. I'm not feeling bad about any of this. I'm not even sad behind it. I don't care about any of this any longer but I don't want to off myself. I'm just indifferent. I posted more so just to vent.


Then use the Rant thread.

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18-11-2015, 06:38 AM
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(18-11-2015 06:37 AM)Banjo Wrote:  
(18-11-2015 06:36 AM)MrKrispy601 Wrote:  I think I need to clarify why I posted. I'm not feeling bad about any of this. I'm not even sad behind it. I don't care about any of this any longer but I don't want to off myself. I'm just indifferent. I posted more so just to vent.


Then use the Rant thread.

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18-11-2015, 06:39 AM
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(18-11-2015 06:38 AM)MrKrispy601 Wrote:  
(18-11-2015 06:37 AM)Banjo Wrote:  Then use the Rant thread.

I do what I want fool!!

You didn't want to use the appropriate thread?

Yet I'm the fool?

Okay, I have been called worse. Smile

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18-11-2015, 06:41 AM
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Sometimes I find working out, to the point that shit hurts, helps........ Busting your ass sometimes is the cure.

Hang in there man, you'll make it...

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18-11-2015, 06:44 AM
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(18-11-2015 06:41 AM)onlinebiker Wrote:  Sometimes I find working out, to the point that shit hurts, helps........ Busting your ass sometimes is the cure.

Hang in there man, you'll make it...

I agree. I used to work out constantly and still practice musical instruments ALL the time. Except when I post.

Just find an outlet. There is much to choose from.

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18-11-2015, 06:45 AM (This post was last modified: 18-11-2015 06:48 AM by Free Thought.)
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(18-11-2015 06:24 AM)Banjo Wrote:  Some people have cancer and are fighting for their lives. My advice is: wake up to yourself. Stop being a weak sad sack and grow some balls.

Too bad things don't work the way the Banjo psychiatry school teaches.

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