PTSD and Memory Loss/Solipsism

[jmiah]

(10-11-2012 03:21 PM)GirlyMan Wrote:  

(10-11-2012 02:42 PM)jmiah Wrote:  I think you may be experiencing something known as dissociation or depersonalization. This can make you feel as if you are a "participant" in your life as opposed to controlling. You can feel outside of yourself. To dissociate is to lose track of time and lose a sense of self.

You say that like it's a bad thing. That is not consistent with my experience.

No, I wouldn't qualify it as bad but he asked the question under the auspices that it was not something he was comfortable with.

[GirlyMan]

(10-11-2012 03:39 PM)jmiah Wrote:  

(10-11-2012 03:21 PM)GirlyMan Wrote:  You say that like it's a bad thing. That is not consistent with my experience.

No, I wouldn't qualify it as bad but he asked the question under the auspices that it was not something he was comfortable with.

I'm not a mental health professional like you, but I have lived through this. Based on my experience, it is unsettling at first, but then it becomes illuminating, informative and liberating. And now I got the advantage in playing the game. Precisely because I can play this bullshit game dispassionately without giving a shit.

[jmiah]

(10-11-2012 03:51 PM)GirlyMan Wrote:  

(10-11-2012 03:39 PM)jmiah Wrote:  No, I wouldn't qualify it as bad but he asked the question under the auspices that it was not something he was comfortable with.

I'm not a mental health professional like you, but I have lived through this. Based on my experience, it is unsettling at first, but then it becomes illuminating, informative and liberating. And now I got the advantage in playing the game. Precisely because I can play this bullshit game dispassionately without giving a shit.

I'd say that is the perfect example of coping/growing.

[Dark Light]

Thanks jmiah, I will bring this up to the doc next time I'm in to see him. It is at least a little bit helpful to know that I am not the only one that experiences it. I consider my PTSD to be more on the mild side than others who I have known, so I'm not sure that it is C-PTSD. I would think C-PTSD would be for those who have had more severe cases. So far I have only experienced

Fear/Panic from not having my rifle with me in public
Intense Nightmare/Sleeplessness
Bouts of anger
Paranoia/Irrational fear of stepping on an IED in the states

Some folks I know have had complete breakdowns and an inability to even go out in public.

[jmiah]

(10-11-2012 04:46 PM)Dark Light Wrote:  Thanks jmiah, I will bring this up to the doc next time I'm in to see him. It is at least a little bit helpful to know that I am not the only one that experiences it. I consider my PTSD to be more on the mild side than others who I have known, so I'm not sure that it is C-PTSD. I would think C-PTSD would be for those who have had more severe cases. So far I have only experienced

Fear/Panic from not having my rifle with me in public
Intense Nightmare/Sleeplessness
Bouts of anger
Paranoia/Irrational fear of stepping on an IED in the states

Some folks I know have had complete breakdowns and an inability to even go out in public.

Don't know if it helps but I'm also a combat vet...it'll get better. I now work with other soldiers professionally for the Army. Hang in there.

[GirlyMan]

(10-11-2012 04:26 PM)jmiah Wrote:  

(10-11-2012 03:51 PM)GirlyMan Wrote:  I'm not a mental health professional like you, but I have lived through this. Based on my experience, it is unsettling at first, but then it becomes illuminating, informative and liberating. And now I got the advantage in playing the game. Precisely because I can play this bullshit game dispassionately without giving a shit.

I'd say that is the perfect example of coping/growing.

I call it exploiting. ... But it's all good.

[Birdguy1979]

I was diagnosed with PTSD a bunch of years ago. Growing up was a harsh experience and my childhood outside of my family life was seriously fucked up. I am not sure if I have any memory loss, but it would make sense if you take certain things into account that I am unwilling to make public.

[Chaos]

What triggers your panic attacks? I have PTSD too but it only gets worse when there's a stressful event in my life.
The 'solipsism' moments sound like panic attacks to me.

[Dark Light]

(23-01-2013 07:01 AM)Chaosss Wrote:  What triggers your panic attacks? I have PTSD too but it only gets worse when there's a stressful event in my life.
The 'solipsism' moments sound like panic attacks to me.

Well, I haven't had that experience any more...not since I posted this some time ago. I can't remember what was going on that day. It don't think it was a panic attack though...The first time I saw someone die I had a panic attack, this was nothing like that. When that happened I hyperventilated...nearly fainted from erratic breathing before I calmed down.