Remembering Nishi
Post Reply
 
Thread Rating:
  • 0 Votes - 0 Average
  • 1
  • 2
  • 3
  • 4
  • 5
02-05-2016, 04:32 AM
RE: Remembering Nishi
This is awful. I can't believe it. Nishi was always so kind to me when I had my troubles.
It doesn't seem real somehow and I am lost for words. Weeping
Find all posts by this user
Like Post Quote this message in a reply
[+] 6 users Like adey67's post
02-05-2016, 04:59 AM
RE: Remembering Nishi
I'm not sure what to say...

I loved his posts. Back when I was a lurker, his was a name that always stood out to me. I never talked to him, but having 'known' him for so long wrenches my heart...

I can't begin to imagine the pain of those if you who knew him better.

Banjo, keep up your strength. You've failed no one. Nishi wouldn't want you to think like that.

Rest in Peace, Nishi, Erik.

Ignorance is not to be ignored.

Check out my DA gallery! http://oo-kiri-oo.deviantart.com/gallery/
Find all posts by this user
Like Post Quote this message in a reply
[+] 6 users Like Loom's post
02-05-2016, 05:43 AM
RE: Remembering Nishi
(01-05-2016 05:27 PM)Black Eagle Wrote:  I didn't know Nishi and I am pretty cold when it comes to suicide. My mother committed suicide when I was 17 and less than a year later one of my best friends committed suicide. During the course of the ensuing 50 years, I've lost many friends to it and a year ago, another close friend killed himself. As cold as I have become to self inflicted death, I am not cold when it touches children and when Banjo told us that Erik had a young daughter, it sucked the breath out of me. I don't want to sound harsh, but you will all recover from this but that child will not. No child deserves this kind of abandonment.

Please don't blame him for abandoning his daughter (I'm sure you didn't mean to). Parents only commit suicide when they are utterly convinced their continued living will hurt the child more than their death.
It's the horrible result of a terrible disease and the Erik I've met would not abandon his daughter on purpose. He'd only leave her to protect her. It's terrible that his sickness made him see no other solution than this.
I hope the family of his daughter will tell her every day how much her father loved her.

We'll never forget this special guy.
Find all posts by this user
Like Post Quote this message in a reply
[+] 15 users Like LadyDay's post
02-05-2016, 06:09 AM (This post was last modified: 02-05-2016 04:26 PM by Anjele.)
RE: Remembering Nishi
My first thought on waking was of Nishi. Sadcryface How I wish he could have shared his burden so we could have carried some of the load...because we would have in any way we could.

I am so sad that he felt things were just too much to handle alone...because he wasn't alone...he had friends here.

If there is anyone else here who has thoughts of ending their life...please talk to us...talk to someone, anyone. Just plan to get through the next day, next hour, next minute...things may look different then. Undecided

We will carry your pain now...how I wish we could have carried Nishi's pain sooner.

See here they are the bruises some were self-inflicted and some showed up along the way. - JF

We're all mad here. The Cheshire Cat
Find all posts by this user
Like Post Quote this message in a reply
[+] 17 users Like Anjele's post
02-05-2016, 06:15 AM
RE: Remembering Nishi
Indeed Angie.

NOTE: Member, Tomasia uses this site to slander other individuals. He then later proclaims it a joke, but not in public.
I will call him a liar and a dog here and now.
Banjo.
Find all posts by this user
Like Post Quote this message in a reply
[+] 1 user Likes Banjo's post
02-05-2016, 06:51 AM
RE: Remembering Nishi
(02-05-2016 05:43 AM)LadyDay Wrote:  
(01-05-2016 05:27 PM)Black Eagle Wrote:  I didn't know Nishi and I am pretty cold when it comes to suicide. My mother committed suicide when I was 17 and less than a year later one of my best friends committed suicide. During the course of the ensuing 50 years, I've lost many friends to it and a year ago, another close friend killed himself. As cold as I have become to self inflicted death, I am not cold when it touches children and when Banjo told us that Erik had a young daughter, it sucked the breath out of me. I don't want to sound harsh, but you will all recover from this but that child will not. No child deserves this kind of abandonment.

Please don't blame him for abandoning his daughter (I'm sure you didn't mean to). Parents only commit suicide when they are utterly convinced their continued living will hurt the child more than their death.
It's the horrible result of a terrible disease and the Erik I've met would not abandon his daughter on purpose. He'd only leave her to protect her. It's terrible that his sickness made him see no other solution than this.
I hope the family of his daughter will tell her every day how much her father loved her.

We'll never forget this special guy.

Well said. Erik loved his daughter so much. I talked to him pretty much every day on the forum and in private messages. Not one day went by when he didn't mention her, it was clear he loved her dearly. He would never willingly abandon her. I use the word willingly because he struggled with a lot of anxiety and depression. He tried so hard to get better for his daughter and for himself. Whenever I would talk to him, he was always trying to think of new ways to get better, new venues to take. He was trying so hard to fight the severe anxiety and depression he struggled with. I know it took a toll on him.

Severe anxiety and depression can cause people to act and think in ways that are not intrinsic to themselves. Abandoning people, being selfish for taking one's life--these terms have nothing to do with what happened with Erik. Those terms are the exact opposite of Erik. Erik was a fighter, he fought long and hard with anxiety/depression, all the while being here on the forum offering support to everyone else who was in need. That was Erik.
Find all posts by this user
Like Post Quote this message in a reply
[+] 10 users Like jennybee's post
02-05-2016, 06:54 AM
RE: Remembering Nishi
(02-05-2016 12:46 AM)Banjo Wrote:  They say a picture.....

In the cancer ward today. Not thinking about cancer.

[Image: 20160502_141417-1_zpss92litz0.jpg]

Jenny. I am very pleased you are here with us today.

You also, are loved. Dale.

Love you Banjo Hug
Find all posts by this user
Like Post Quote this message in a reply
[+] 4 users Like jennybee's post
02-05-2016, 07:04 AM
RE: Remembering Nishi
Still trying to get my head round all of this it feels so unreal.Nishi will never post here again and it really hurts to know that. He really helped me to get my problems in perspective and offered unconditional support and love. I don't care what anyone says, as far as I'm concerned if Erik sent you a virtual hug you could actually feel it, it was always so genuine.
Its such a fucking waste and I'm angry and sad at the same time, I'm not ashamed to say that my eyes leaked earlier today. Rest in peace Nishi xx Hug
Find all posts by this user
Like Post Quote this message in a reply
[+] 3 users Like adey67's post
02-05-2016, 07:15 AM
RE: Remembering Nishi
More hugs for anybody:

Hug Hug Hug
Find all posts by this user
Like Post Quote this message in a reply
[+] 5 users Like CosmicRaven's post
02-05-2016, 07:33 AM
RE: Remembering Nishi
drink plenty of fluids friends. take care of yourselves. This smoldering anguish, argh. I wish we could be together and hug it out and cry it out, and take some deep quavering breaths, and get a little better. Get it together, but not to forget.
Find all posts by this user
Like Post Quote this message in a reply
[+] 4 users Like skyking's post
Post Reply
Forum Jump: