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28-05-2016, 07:33 PM
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I have now been an atheist for two years. It was as if the world had cracked open with a massive earthquake, and I was the only one who felt the tremors. I have never felt so alone as I did in that moment. It was terrifying.

Now it's the opposite - I have so much less fear in my life. And guilt? None of that, because if it's something I find wrong, I don't do it - as compared to feeling guilty over "thought crimes" just because I found someone other than my now ex-husband attractive. I've had some crazy adventurous shenanigans, met some awesome people, learned how to express myself again after being a doormat for so long, and discovered what really is important to me.

In this past year I have learned what it truly means to be free. Life is so beautiful. I appreciate each day so much more. I've come a long way from that broken woman sitting on the front porch with a glass of Chardonnay watching all my neighbors pass by on the way to their Sunday evening church service seeing the world in color for the first time, much like Dorothy waking to find herself in Oz. I found me and I'm a better person for it.

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28-05-2016, 07:47 PM
RE: Two Years in the Land of Oz
Awesome. Really glad for you, Nurse. Smile

(I did read the thread title and think, "Wait, she moved to Australia!? How did I not know that?")

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28-05-2016, 08:06 PM
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So happy for you. From an outside pov of someone who never believed it feels like so much freedom that I can't even imagine how much more that would seem from the pov of the previously enslaved.

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28-05-2016, 08:07 PM
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(28-05-2016 07:47 PM)RocketSurgeon76 Wrote:  Awesome. Really glad for you, Nurse. Smile

(I did read the thread title and think, "Wait, she moved to Australia!? How did I not know that?")

Thanks! Ha, you crossed my mind earlier today. I wonder what Rocket's been up to?

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28-05-2016, 08:09 PM
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(28-05-2016 07:33 PM)Nurse Wrote:  I have now been an atheist for two years. It was as if the world had cracked open with a massive earthquake, and I was the only one who felt the tremors. I have never felt so alone as I did in that moment. It was terrifying.

Now it's the opposite - I have so much less fear in my life. And guilt? None of that, because if it's something I find wrong, I don't do it - as compared to feeling guilty over "thought crimes" just because I found someone other than my now ex-husband attractive. I've had some crazy adventurous shenanigans, met some awesome people, learned how to express myself again after being a doormat for so long, and discovered what really is important to me.

In this past year I have learned what it truly means to be free. Life is so beautiful. I appreciate each day so much more. I've come a long way from that broken woman sitting on the front porch with a glass of Chardonnay watching all my neighbors pass by on the way to their Sunday evening church service seeing the world in color for the first time, much like Dorothy waking to find herself in Oz. I found me and I'm a better person for it.

Congratulations! Bolding mine. I felt pretty much the same way when I acknowledged my lack of belief to myself. That was in 2006. Some people, I'm out with. Not my wife, believe it or not. She is a true believer. I'm working on a way to approach this and get it out in the open. It might not be that bad, since we haven't been in a church except for a marryin' or buryin' in the last 13 years.

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28-05-2016, 08:45 PM
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(28-05-2016 07:33 PM)Nurse Wrote:  I have now been an atheist for two years. It was as if the world had cracked open with a massive earthquake, and I was the only one who felt the tremors. I have never felt so alone as I did in that moment. It was terrifying.

Now it's the opposite - I have so much less fear in my life. And guilt? None of that, because if it's something I find wrong, I don't do it - as compared to feeling guilty over "thought crimes" just because I found someone other than my now ex-husband attractive. I've had some crazy adventurous shenanigans, met some awesome people, learned how to express myself again after being a doormat for so long, and discovered what really is important to me.

In this past year I have learned what it truly means to be free. Life is so beautiful. I appreciate each day so much more. I've come a long way from that broken woman sitting on the front porch with a glass of Chardonnay watching all my neighbors pass by on the way to their Sunday evening church service seeing the world in color for the first time, much like Dorothy waking to find herself in Oz. I found me and I'm a better person for it.

So pleased for you. You deserve to be happy.

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28-05-2016, 09:40 PM
RE: Two Years in the Land of Oz
And here's me already to give you an Aussie welcome LOL.

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28-05-2016, 09:58 PM
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Nurse, your post warmed the cockles of my heart. Yes

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28-05-2016, 10:24 PM
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(28-05-2016 07:33 PM)Nurse Wrote:  And guilt? None of that, because if it's something I find wrong, I don't do it - as compared to feeling guilty over "thought crimes" just because I found someone other than my now ex-husband attractive.


You are not doing anything wrong if you see either of these two as attractive. Big Grin

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28-05-2016, 10:42 PM
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Like I always say, there's no better way to celebrate than to be serenaded by a (literally) morbidly obese Hawaiian man. Smile

Happy atheiversary!



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