(30-11-2012 03:04 AM)Vera Wrote:
(30-11-2012 03:00 AM)amav.eram Wrote: After I had finally stopped believing...just in case...I spent a few weeks intentionally praying for God to open the skies and prove that he exists etc...I made a deal that if he didn't, then it was goodbye...then after a few weeks I told Him it had been good knowing him and that I was leaving. That was about 6 months ago, haven't prayed since then and don't see any reason to. Whenever my Christian friends and family pray, I now just see it as them trying to care and love in the way they know best.
Oh, I prayed to god to not let me lose my faith for quite some time. (I'm obviously a stubborn - and slow on the uptake - b**ch). I think that's how it turned into a meaningless compulsion. For which I thank him
"For if a son asks his father for a fish, he will not give him a stone", or some b******t like that. Thats at least what all of my Christian friends trumpeted when I lost my faith. Not believing in "sky-daddy" is the best fish a son could ever ask for.