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08-03-2014, 12:04 PM
toxic affects expurging
I almost called this negative affects, but instead I want to be clear- I mean anything toxic. Tolerance is sometimes necessary but it is never preferred. To tolerate means to endure something that is wrong, bad, unhealthy, detrimental, etc. It's great therefore to have a strong tolerance, but also a strong ability to throw things off your back so you don't have to tolerate it. I'm becoming more sensitive to negative (toxic) affects, because I see the price i have to pay for carrying them. In my ignorance I used to minimize their negative affects, and brush them aside. Now i see they lead to a sexless, loveless, life of poverty. I'm needing, in my own life, to come not only to a revaluation of all values but to accomplish an inversion of most if not all values. I chose atheism because I realized the bankruptcy of religion, and hebraic abrahamic religion esp. and superstition and mythology and ideology in general. I chose to be atheist or whathave you in my highest consciousness at the time- the same way I chose religion. Now it is just a matter of having my new truths and understandings work their way down into my body. It is true, the christians are despisers of the body and afterworlds men. I am trying to love my body. Unfortunately, while the body is self-healing and can heal bones, the teeth cannot heal, nor the hearing, nor flat feet, nor circumcision lost foreskin, nor (though I'm told otherwise) bad vision. These are all things I suffer from. Well I see the price I pay for morality, for despising the body, for trying to be good, and for ignoring the small feelings inside myself ("trying to be a bigger man"). It has led me on the wrong track. How do you know you are on the right track? For me it feels erotic. Difficult and very difficult at times. The track consumes resources of time, and energy, and attention and sexual energy. It should pay all this back, but it is all consuming and that is why few find it, but I have to stay on it because being off it leads to poverty and curses> being on it I already get more love. Money and wealth buy love, no mistake. the hebrews at least they do not despise this world in their religiosity though they despise the foreskin and in so doing despise the body. Congratulations to them for being nationalistic and proud and not letting anyone disrupt their nationalistic aims. Would that europe and germany feel the same. i do not say that about america because america is not an ethnic nation but a pluralistic state/empire. I love diversity, so that's why I believe we need nationalism rather than a blending of all peoples into homogeneity.

Fear, guilt, shame, about sex- religion puts fear inside of us. unfortunately our brains and imaginations are so weak. They are so easily distracted. Knowledge is little defense. We all know the story of tempters. I know not to eat sugar and so on, or lust after what I can't have- but we see images of candy or we see pictures of beautiful women photoshopped. curse on these corporations that produce these images. Make no mistake, they are businessmen, who are interested in sales revenue, as well as gross margin and return on equity, on earnings per share and market share. They even know how to incentivize their executives, with stock appreciation rights, and warrants and other instruments, so they take part in the plunder of the public. They know the body is weak and the mind feeds on what is in its environment. It cannot do otherwise.

Preachers are tolerated in our society, and pastors, and the religious. In america they are tolerated and I would say encouraged. I see in the tax code and tax laws- I see with acts of congress, when they permit deductions for certain expenses and expenditures, how they are allowing that. They do not do that indifferently- they want to encourage- and they want to encourage religion in america. America is significant as a country or state/empire to the whole world (and not in a good way) because it tipped the balance in both world wars, it funded communist bolshevism in russia and helped protect it by allying with it in wwii. It created the bomb and used it in japan, it supported and recognized israel at its first inception, and still supports it to this day massively with aid, it still spies on germany and has bases around the world and works on its weapons programs massively, it spreads its culture through hollywood to the world, it passes itself off as the ideological moral self-righteous in terms of values of democracy and egalitarianism and 'civil rights' so it pressured south africa against apartheid only a few decades after it became equal in its treatment of all its citizens, and america changes the state of the entire middle east. America is significant and the religiosity of america makes a big difference in politics and elsewhere. It is my ambition to have a ripple effect in consciousness in this land and world by finding a way through the lies and distortions and helping others see things as I see them, as an experience, so they can decide what they believe sincerely and become more well rounded in their understanding. Since we live in a democracy, we are the voters, and the ultimate rulers (in theory), and since that is the case, and since rulers must exercise extreme responsibility, we must do so as well. I wish we didn't live in a democracy, with such a strong federal government at least, capable of making war against virtually anybody, capable of levying taxes on its own citizens for virtually anything it chooses, but we do, so us individual democrats must know so much about so much or we are bad rulers, negligent or even tyrannical. we are responsible for what's happening in japan, germany, iran, iraq, to the extent we are democrats (we are, legally!) and to the extent our country engages in actions with them. Religion affects our thinking and behavior.

On a more personal note- it also affects our sex lives. We are hemmed, we are not free. Even when we stop being religious, we still retain- or at least I did- feelings of 'though should' and 'though shouldn't. I am a man guilty (in the legal sense) of overanalyzing everything. I should just do it, but there's fear, and shame, and all sorts of negative affects. I feel I don't have permission. What am I waiting for? I have had my perceptions change so much so swiftly in the last months, that I realize we see the world with glasses on- sometimes rose coloured sometimes gray colored or green-with-envy coloured with the evil eye. Or the lustful eye, or the crazy eye, the cross eye, or other forms of impure eyes. I woke up today thinking of the worlds of the national anthem- oh say does that star spangled banner yet wave, in the land of the free and the home of the brave. To me this is a stupid anthem, as stupid as lincoln's gettysburg address. To those who rejected the abrahamic religions of judaism, islam and christianity, if these words still make you feel reverent or giddy, you are still captive to religious or ideological sentiment or feeling. That's why I woke up thinking of them- my 'spirit' - i.e. self, which is the body, has a lust for freedom- and it has a lust as always for erotic connection, for social connection, for a house, for a good job. This is what I must focus on, and not be distracted by, what I must stay on track for, and stay relevant for. It is necessary to be materialistic, for we are made of material. Material property and possession, status and standing in society, among other things, buy or help you win love and attention from women, or give you ability to meet them more easily as equals. Forget what any liers or slanderers say- this matters. Women prioritize economic security over sex and as they get security they become more open to sex, whereas men become more interested in economic after they're getting their sex needs met. We both try come together but our priorities differ. To open a woman who is not open is possible and to do so it helps to have wealth, what others call the 'lifestyle'. It really means in its foundation a good job or business. It's hard to have a good lifestyle without a good job, and with a good job its hard not to. Do not be distracted young man. Young man, you must know what you need. Young man, today's society is crazy- it is gender neutral, there are few role models of manliness, and manliness itself is hardly if at all seen as a virtue. Young man, how is there to be eroticitiy in such a scenario? Young man we live in a prudish society where female primary fantasy- a secure income, house, provider, is the law, and males is against the law- a harem. I'm not saying we should pursue this necessary, as the key to happiness. I'm saying the legal system is against the male fantasy but for the womans. it is essential young man you look out for yourself first of all because nobody else cares for you and if you get hoodwinked into religion or other forms of altruism, then you are not even your own greatest advocate. Its easier to help the poor when you're rich, remember that, and its hard to become rich thinking of others. Its easier to talk about what you're gonna do than doing it, so if I want to impress people, increasingly, I talk about what i've done. bragging you may call it. Hey, if I have bragging rights, I might as well. It's better than being a talker about what you will do, giving away all your good ideas and putting pressure on yourself, spilling your secrets. Young man the system wants your wealth. Young man there are a lot of parasites, who are not your friends, but who may pretend to be- divorce lawyers, congressmen, others. Young man, it is healthy to follow your libido and not get discouraged. You need durable things- durable morale, durable competitive advantage. Young man, you were probably raised soft, as most are today, in a gender neutral environment. Alexander the great conquered the known world by age 32, and he was raised hard. Religion is like acid in our brains, encouraged by this society through preferential tax laws and other things. Don't let any of this demoralize you, but learn and recall the score. Deniars of the score do themselves no favors. The score is not good. The score is awful but you have powers. You have powers when you know the score. When you face the abyss, and take the hard first, then you gain powers. Pandoras box shouldn't have been opened they say, but pandoras box had to be. It was the unconscious mind. Hope was the last thing to escape, and the worst, because it is based on unreality and is cause for giddyness. But now you know your unconscious mind, you can gain the gifts, the true gifts of power. You can make your own laws. Laws are a fiction, a legal fiction, just like religion. It is like we are all playing a RPG- role playing game, like dungeons and dragons> That is what church is like- a meeting club of people playing this game. But that is what courts are like, if you don't share the basic values and morality of the law. When the legal system says they derive their laws from natural law- the underlying moral law of the universe, they are playing this delusional fantasy game. The judges like to be addressed as 'your honor'. These things, if you play along with them, have karmic consequences, and consequences to your mind, brain, morale, libido, self-assessment, self-confidence, and so on.

The way I see it, you want to be able to read financial statements, understand the law, religion, and anything which transfers power. You want to see things as an allocation of love and wealth- and the two are connected, and you want to be able to enjoy life, so you want to be able to enjoy the female, as well as a garden or orchard and property, and leave a lasting legacy, for the better. To me it is right to care about ones kinfolk, because they are your relatives, even if you disagree with them on ideology or their way of life, if they are libtars ,or whatever (which i once was) they are still your kinfolk, you want to help them, be there for them, hope they come around and mature, you want to invest in them if possible. You want to choose them for a job and discriminate in favor of them. Shame on the legal system which makes such discrimination illegal and holds one liable for lawsuits. to do so is anti-nature and hateful against biology and against ones deepest instincts, it spits in the face of real natural law, is communist and totalitarian, a dictatorship of the democrats and the whole thing is orwellian, with newspeak, and newmorality). Funny how morality can reverse itself, but at each time it considers itself to be absolute and legitimate. Besides this, banning discrimination, besides whatever justification they can put forth, additionally, as a second argument against it, is that it expands the scope, jurisdiction and power of the federal, state and local governments and the courts. I tell you, all this is like playing a game. You have to know what words to use when addressing courts and judges. if you use the right words, you can win the game, usually, though sometimes they just don't care, they show their true male fide intent. I don't know what words to use, I don't have the answers, I just know it is so, from observation. I'm not giving anyone legal or any other sort of advice, and I disclaim absolutely any liability and responsibility for other people's folly or bad outcomes and decisions. I only want what's natural. I hate when what is unnatural is held as legitimate, and what's natural held as illegitimate. I hate when true values, or what I consider true, are inverted. This came about as I see it from being overwhelmed. First, Rome was undermined by the Christians and others, and then it was overwhelmed. It became christian. It was corrupted. Then This spread to central europe, with the murder of pagans, and their societies were overwhelmed. In England, the puritans, whose history I do not know, became fundamentalists, which is really a wrong word, because fundament means a land which is pure- but it can also mean something which is founded, i.e. invented, which is their religious ideology- they became fanatics. Fanatic comes from Fanum, i.e. temple. Ah how these word etymologies betray their origins, in religion. giddy comes from god- goddy, filled with god. Enthusiasm means en-theos- god in you. The religious are filled with a strange affect of power or the illusion thereof, and become self-righteous and disconnected from the real world and this affects their sex character. This is a real sickness. I consider it the refuge of a defeated society or man. I consider it an escape mechanism from responsibilities- i.e. from consciousness and awareness. I consider it also the tool by which others, aliens and outsiders, use to conquer, and also what insiders in the kingroup use to betray and plunder to their own advantage. There are also in-group parasites, including those who ally with the aliens- and I don't mean the greys. They are worse than the so called outsiders, or aliens, who are sometimes true insiders to humanity, who actually deserve nobel peace prizes- occasionally. But the puritans anyway whatever their origin came to settle in and found america- to invent america. They invented america, the concept, the state, the constitution. I have an inalienable right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. Well I guess that right is alienable, in the sense that capital punishment is permitted. What if my pursuit of happiness demands that I take initiative to bring a girl back to my house? I'm always afraid I'll have gone too far. I'm perpetually paranoid that I'll be all rapey. This if no other reason is why I want them to chase me, for them to take the initiative. I"m not going to take responsibility under a corrupt system. I'll chase wealth and power as well as strong solid identity in myself, with low hanging balls and testosterone, and if I have a problem, like with my job being insecure, I have to fix that before I can really continue. It is better to prevent problems than have to fix them, and to gain revenues and a good life, you must make expenditures and incur expenses. These are not avoidable, and while its great some can pay cash for houses and cars, others have to take loans and incur interest expenses on said loans, it still may be the best way for them. If our parents were wealthy, or grandparents, so what if we are not. We are not to feel inferior in any way if we are being true to ourselves, except inasmuch as said inferiority does not make us feel bad or blocked or inhibited from enjoying life. We are to enjoy our own level to the fullest. The body is not the temple of the spirit, but the body is all that is. This is a scary thought for most- and it is worth thinking just for that fact. If it turns out to be false, so much the better, but the body is the great compass and great polygraph test as well, esp when one is in tune with it, the body's wisdom and intelligence exceeds that of the mere mind by far. They eyes can lie but the body as a whole is usually 100x more correct. Evil_monster

The phrase arbeit macht frei came from religious writing in Weimar Germany and I guess was used by the Weimar state as well. It has connotations however with National Socialist labor camps during the war years and therefore such connotations, the NSDAP being the losers of said war, has negative connotations. However the truth of these words- translated roughly as "work makes you free", are completely, 100 percent accurate and true. They ring so to me anyways- without work I am not free, and work brings freedoms and advantages I did not even expect. As Ralph Engeldstad, self made billionarre and philanthropist said- the harder I work, the luckier I get. I find through work I can work off my toxic affects, I gain standing in society, I work off my shame, which is a big one, I get closer to my body, I win money to spend, I form associations. Work is the best. nietzsche said "only thoughts won by walking have any value". I would go higher than even him- and say thoughts won by working have the highest value.

To break through barriers, one needs power and force- a charge. How to build this charge, I don't know, but work doesn't hurt. Those who can't work for themselves, their own plans, visions and intentions to their own personal advantage, selfish and self-serving as it may be, must work for another, but in so doing, one can learn discipline, priority, trade skills, and gain money to perhaps invest in equipment and start a business or something. Work makes you free. Study only as much as it is relevant to freedom, so if you go to unversity, choose a course of study that is most relevant. Everything on exams are relevant in as much as they determine grades, inasmuch as that is relevant, as grades are form of capital or an intangible asset, but the knowledge is also generally highly relevant- it should be, in theory- though sometimes it is not.

Women and men are largely the same, but different in significant ways biologically, but to a large degree, where they are the same is made redundant or different by outside forces- and even besides culture, by market forces and situations of life. Men must work hard just to gain equality with a beautiful woman. However before they may have been the same, the fact that a man has to work and sweat and try and think how he will do things and talk to her, means they become unequal. The fact that she's experienced so many come-ons makes her unequal, de facto. Man therefore in our situation shall have no expectation that he must apologize, for his desires, when culture is hostile to his desires, although not necessarily female desires, but culture and religion is hostile, and she is suspicious- therefore man has every right and duty to be selfish and unapologetic, to anyone, to his president, father, boss (although such should be turned into his friend and ally for life freedom), or the judge or officer of the peace (though all such should be 'minded'). The world is almost 'evil' on men, in the sense the world contradicts his desires and try to bar them from realization, and worse, rob him of his perspective, with so much multi-culturalism and ideological morality,and rob him of truth and information, with so much fogging and disinformation. You may think I'm strange. I'm not crazy, rather I'm just very very sane. I call a spade a spade. In a world where everyone calls it a hoe, I call it a spade. the female heart is won by the man with power. The more beautiful, nice and cute she is, the more hard you have to work to be yourself and be natural as to your desires. Beauty can also curse, and deceive and distort. Beauty is also one of the evils- or a mix between good and evil, along with religion and politics and the war machine. There are so many evils. One must stay on track, simple as that and remain conscious, free from envy, the evil eye, lusting in vain, bad habits and addictions, etc. Our right is to try win, our duty is to win and enjoy life. Don't let any talk of laws or rules get in the way of what's necessary. A man's gotta do what a man's gotta do. This is not legal advice for anybody and I disclaim any liability for readers actions. Religion and the world get inside your body via your mind and senses. It is not so easy to vomit these out, but nothing could be more necessary- and to keep them out, lest they return. Be free, in your body, be free
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08-03-2014, 12:31 PM
RE: toxic affects expurging
What kind of babbling bullshit is this?
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08-03-2014, 12:58 PM
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Wednesdays he was often a no-show at the EPA, marking the absence in the office calendar with a cryptic descriptor: “D.O. Oversight.” It was shorthand for his duties with the CIA’s Directorate of Operations, the division that sent spies on clandestine missions. Sometimes Beale’s EPA managers didn’t see him for weeks or months—when he took off for Pakistan after getting word that a fellow CIA agent was being held captive by the Taliban, for example. He was a man apart to them, a Vietnam vet with a stunning intellect who jet-setted around the globe to protect America. They kept his secret safe and didn’t ask questions.

Beale announced his retirement from the EPA in 2011. More than a year later, an employee noticed something strange on the payroll: Beale, then 63 years old, was still drawing a salary.

Evidence of the discrepancy soon made its way to Mark Kaminsky, a special agent with the agency’s Office of Inspector General. Kaminsky had been an EPA investigator for two years and thought he knew a typical time-and-attendance fraud case when he saw one.

But there was nothing typical about Beale. When Kaminsky first approached him last year about the peculiarity, Beale acted arrogant and became dismissive. He refused to answer any questions that might compromise his classified work and lawyered up.


Among Beale’s staff, Kaminsky found unwavering devotion. “He was known as the golden child, the go-to man,” the investigator says. “Everybody who had contact with him had nothing bad to say about the man.”

Kaminsky knew how to spot a liar. Before arriving at the EPA, he had spent a decade in federal law enforcement. As an air marshal, he’d helped the FBI interview suspected terrorists after 9/11, and he knew the “tells” that gave away the truth. Kaminsky could see something wasn’t right.

He dug deeper, until he’d boiled the case down to a simple question: How could John Beale be in two places at once?

• • •

The “golden child” of the EPA had never intended to stay in Washington.

He’d come to help craft crucial amendments to the landmark Clean Air Act of 1970. The job began in 1988, and he was good at everything it entailed: negotiating with EPA attorneys and, as a liaison to the White House, keeping President George H.W. Bush’s staff abreast of the proposed changes.

An old friend, Robert Brenner, had first approached Beale with the opportunity. The men had been classmates at Princeton in the 1970s when Beale was working on a master’s in public affairs while simultaneously studying at New York University for a law degree. Beale had come east from California, where he’d used the GI Bill at UC Riverside after a stint in the Army in the early 1970s.

Brenner worked for the EPA’s Office of Air and Radiation, which was responsible for regulating pollution under the Clean Air Act. He thought his buddy John Beale would be perfect for the job of writing amendments to the law.

Beale had made a living dealing with regulatory agencies such as the Federal Election Commission and the Securities and Exchange Commission at his three-partner law firm in Lake City, Minnesota, a town of 5,000 where his mother had grown up. He was good at thinking strategically. Plus, he’d interned for a US senator while in college, so he could likely hold his own on the Hill.

Beale’s parents were devoted public servants—his father a minister, his mother a nurse—and at the EPA he saw a chance to do meaningful work, too. Because his federal salary was small compared with the paycheck he was drawing in the private sector, he expected to leave the government after his job as a consultant to the EPA ended.

But Beale’s reputation as a skilled negotiator meant that his portfolio at the agency grew quickly. “I found him to be one of the most capable people whom I knew during my career at EPA,” colleague Aron Anthony Golberg, who spent more than 20 years there, would later observe. “I had absolutely no reason at all to question his trustworthiness or sense of ethics.”

Beale made such an impression that in 1989 the EPA made him a policy analyst—a permanent, career federal employee. The agency submitted its legislation to Congress, and Beale began working closely with lawmakers to write the proposals into law. At year’s end, he accepted an EPA Gold Medal for Exceptional Service—its highest honor—for crafting the complex policies in just two years.

Beale was an employee the EPA didn’t want to lose. To ensure he wouldn’t quit, his bosses bestowed on him a retention incentive, a temporary bonus worth 25 percent of his annual salary for three years. It was a rare privilege, normally reserved for scientists and others with hard-to-come-by technical skills.

He took on leadership roles in other crucial agency initiatives, becoming a leader of the US delegation to a convention on international pollution agreements and traveling across the country to negotiate with automakers as part of the agency’s effort to set stricter standards for car emissions.

EPA employee Lydia Wegman, who worked with Beale until the mid-’90s, would later laud his charisma and gift for mastering complex issues: “He could . . . explain them clearly and forcefully to others both within and outside EPA, and marshal persuasive arguments in support.”

• • •

There were always rumors about Beale floating around the EPA clean-air office. That this intelligent, important man in their midst was often traveling internationally for the agency and conducting confidential meetings on the Hill prompted coworkers to ask jokingly if he was a secret agent.

He’d shake his head and cluck, “Well, if I told you anything, I’d have to kill you.”

In 2000, after 12 years with the agency, Beale started skipping work on Wednesdays for his “D.O. Oversight” missions. By this time, he’d been promoted to senior policy adviser, a position below the Senior Executive Service level but higher than a GS-15. For a while, and despite continuing to draw his EPA pay on those days, no one asked about his absences. He took nine of the days in 2000 and 15 in 2001.

The first time anyone broached the subject was that year, when Jeff Holmstead, then assistant administrator of the Air and Radiation Office, spoke with Beale about his “D.O.” Wednesdays. Beale revealed that the joke was no joke: He’d worked for the three-letter agency earlier in his career, and it was now calling him back for a secret assignment. He would have to take a half day off here and there to help out. Maybe a few whole days, too. Holmstead, who’d known Beale during his time working on the Clean Air Act amendments, agreed to the arrangement.

In 2002 “D.O. Oversight” would appear in Beale’s calendar 22 times. The next year 14 times, and the year after that 18. In 2005 his covert operation took him away for 25 days. At times he’d make coy references to big international news—a bombing in Pakistan, violence in India—and insinuate that the CIA had him working on it. To colleagues who saw Beale as an outstanding employee, it made sense that agencies more selective than the EPA would put his talents to use.

Beale also let drop to coworkers that he’d fought in Vietnam, which dovetailed with his secret-agent identity. In 2002 he divulged to his boss that he’d caught malaria in the jungle battlefields three decades earlier. The condition apparently made his trek from an EPA parking lot difficult. The agency gave him a parking space closer to his office, subsidizing the spot at a cost of $200 a month.


As Beale’s responsibilities with the CIA expanded, his work at the EPA took on a more abstract form. In 2005 he pitched the EPA a long-term research project on the future of environmental regulation, which would require trips to California. His bosses green-lighted the endeavor and let him take the reins with little supervision. Over the next two years, he made five trips to Los Angeles, charging the EPA $57,235 for hotels and airplane seats in first class—necessary because of a back injury.

The 2008 election year brought new CIA duties for Beale. He told his EPA managers he’d been assigned a multi-agency “executive protection” project involving security for political candidates. The assignment kept him away from the EPA between June and December, a full six months.

Beale returned to his EPA office in January 2009 and began to spend more time there. Between President Obama’s first inauguration and May 2011, he took only nine “D.O. Oversight” days. The new administration had renewed attention on environmental issues. Beale had work to do.

• • •

Everything was going so well. So well that when Beale decided retirement was upon him after 23 years at the EPA, he threw a party.

It was September 22, 2011, on a yacht cruising the Potomac. Beale and two coworkers paid for the celebration. One was a colleague from his early days who was also planning to retire, and the other was Brenner, his Princeton classmate and EPA colleague. Beale called the group the “three musketeers on the Clean Air Act.”

More than a hundred EPA employees and guests were onboard, including Beale’s boss, Gina McCarthy, the official who headed the Air and Radiation Office and whom Obama would later pick to head the agency.

Seven weeks after the cruise, Beale told McCarthy that he’d banked some vacation time and would be using it to fill his final months at the EPA. His official retirement, therefore, wouldn’t begin until around January or February 2012.

He went off the radar after that, and everyone assumed he was retired.

But in November 2012, more than a year after the party on the Potomac, an HR employee went to McCarthy with cause for concern: Beale was still drawing a paycheck for his full salary of $206,000, including the 25-percent retention bonus that was supposed to be temporary—years after the incentive should have expired. Beale was making more than McCarthy. More than anyone at the EPA, actually. He had become the highest-paid employee in the agency.

McCarthy sent him an e-mail asking after him. “Maybe we should reconnect so you can catch me up on your plan,” she wrote.

“Gina, thanks for your note, and as usual, your timing is excellent. I just got back into the country from a too long trip yesterday,” Beale responded on Election Day 2012. “Tonight’s outcome will have a significant impact on those ‘Plans’ of mine.”

Beale seemed to be saying that his obligations to the CIA—and whether he merited a future government paycheck—would be determined by that night’s election results.

A few weeks later, he e-mailed McCarthy with an update: “Today is my last day of what I consider substantive work in the government. I still have to spend some time . . . out processing and being debriefed.”

Beale had offered to swing by his boss’s office to discuss the situation, and they’d set up a few dates, but McCarthy always seemed to reschedule and put him off. Then, just before Christmas, a Homeland Security detailee approached Beale. The EPA’s liaison to the intelligence community, he told Beale he couldn’t find any official records on Beale’s CIA work. Could Beale get the name of a contact person at the agency?

Beale said he’d work on it. It occurred to him then that there was a reason why McCarthy was always postponing their meetings.

When the two finally met in January 2013, McCarthy told Beale outright that the EPA needed the CIA’s verification of his employment. A document, a phone call, anything. He said he’d get something soon.

But the next month, he returned empty-handed. “Gina, the agency’s not going to acknowledge what I’ve been doing,” he said.

“Well,” she told him, “that puts you in a really bad position, doesn’t it?”

• • •


Mark Kaminsky, the investigator for the IG, was determined to get to the bottom of the mystery when Beale’s file landed on his desk in February 2013. It soon became clear that the case was special.

First, Kaminsky faced the difficult task of separating the man from the myth. Despite his prolonged absences, Beale was still a powerful figure inside the EPA. He inspired allegiance in his coworkers, who knew they could count on him to get even the toughest jobs done. “Yeah, he wasn’t around often, but when we needed him, he stepped up,” one of Beale’s colleagues told Kaminsky.

His superiors, too, respected him. “Even Gina McCarthy, when we interviewed her, stipulated that he was one of the best managers she’s ever had,” Kaminsky says.

An interview with the man himself added to the enigma. Beale’s persuasive manner was on full display when Kaminsky first questioned him. “He was confident in that meeting,” Kaminksy says. “Very confident, and I would say somewhat arrogant.” Beale invoked his right to an attorney, and the questioning stalled.

Con men usually lead double lives, and the spaces left between fact and fiction are where investigators make their case. Kaminsky’s task was to scour the hard evidence and look for gaps hidden in minutiae. Phone records and e-mails. Interviews with 25 of Beale’s colleagues.

Kaminsky stitched together information from a collection of sources, using the same methods he’d learned while tracking terrorists. Finally, after Beale balked at questions, Kaminsky handed over the dossier he’d amassed to the US Attorney’s Office. A federal prosecutor presented Beale’s lawyer with the file—which included phone records showing Beale stateside, at home in Arlington, at times when he’d claimed to have been overseas—and asked that crucial question: How could John Beale be in two places at once?

This time, authorities got the response they wanted: He was ready to talk.

Kaminsky already knew what Beale would say. Kaminsky had worked in intelligence as a US Marine at the beginning of his career. He knew how intelligence agents conducted their business. They didn’t talk about it over e-mail, as Beale had done.

Either way, Kaminsky had the trump card. He had finished the most obvious legwork, doing seemingly what no one at the EPA had contemplated for more than a decade. He called the CIA.

John Beale had never worked there.

• • •

It wasn’t supposed to get this out of hand.

That’s what Beale would say later in a sworn deposition with the House Oversight Committee in Congress.

In his early days at the EPA, when office staff would bat around the playful rumors, “I would laugh it off,” Beale said on Capitol Hill. “I mean it was a—it was a joke.”

Until that first “D.O. Oversight” Wednesday.

“I took advantage of the rumors,” he admitted.

The ruse began as a way to make himself feel more important. Beale had grown up without much money in Minnesota, his father’s minister salary always spread thin. The family moved twice to follow his dad’s church jobs—first to Connecticut when Beale was nine, then to California in the middle of high school. The second relocation was difficult, having to leave friends and adapt once again to a new environment.

Beale was smart. He won scholarships and took odd jobs to pay his way through high school and college. But he was also insecure. Last year, a therapist helped him recognize that these insecurities fed his alter ego. The lies became an addiction.

“I use the word ‘addiction,’ but I don’t mean it in the sense of a disease,” Beale said in his deposition. “I mean it in the sense you get kind of a rush out of this or an excitement about manipulating people or convincing them of something that’s not true.”

And like most addicts, he lost control. A Wednesday here and there became six months of leave for “executive protection.”

“It’s not a case where I sat down on a given Monday and said, ‘Oh, I think I’ll take six months off and steal six months of time from the EPA and the taxpayers,’ ” Beale said. “I think it’s one of those things that just started and—and grew, and I didn’t check it when I should have.”

Kaminsky uncovered firsthand evidence of how all-consuming the lie had become. Scouring Beale’s phone and e-mail records, he saw there was no part of the man’s life that hadn’t absorbed his espionage fiction.

“He lied across all aspects of his life,” says Kaminsky, who even contacted a psychologist friend with questions about what makes a sociopath. “You normally don’t see that. A criminal usually is not lying to everyone. But John Beale was.”

Even to his wife. Beale told Kaminsky he’d lied to her since 1994 about being a CIA agent. The investigator saw, in e-mails between the couple, that their relationship appeared otherwise normal—mostly they chatted about mundane things like gardening. “But there was a very consistent blanket of deceit,” Kaminsky says.

• • •

How did Beale get away with it?

When he finally sat down with Kaminsky and the federal prosecutor, they saw a very different man from the one at the first meeting. “He was extremely humble,” Kaminsky says. “He was anxious to explain his story and the why of it all. Why he did this.”

Beale proceeded to walk investigators through a decade of falsehoods, from the small lies to the colossal deceptions.

He never had malaria and never fought in Vietnam. But he did spend two years stateside as a medic in the Army, where he treated people with malaria, so he knew the symptoms. That helped him convince his manager that he had it and get the subsidized parking space. His coworkers also believed the lie. “One person we interviewed even told us that their dad had malaria and said it looked like Beale did, too,” Kaminsky says.

The EPA “research project” that took Beale to Los Angeles five times was really a smoke screen for visiting his parents in Bakersfield, two hours away. Yet his travel vouchers were barely reviewed. Officials didn’t question his expenses—they were approved laterally, by a peer instead of a manager. “Because of where he sat in the organizational structure, there were no questions,” Kaminsky says.

• • •

Beale’s off-the-charts $206,000 salary, inflated because of the 25-percent retention bonus that never expired, was more than allowed under law. An Inspector General’s report published last year faulted a lack of internal controls at the EPA—there was no automatic stop on the bonuses after the designated allotments were distributed.

In the same report, the IG revealed that these pay issues had been brought to the attention of Beale’s office as early as July 2010. Yet managers believed that the discrepancy was a human-resources matter and tossed it back, causing it to languish for years.

Beale could have stopped his fraud after the flashy “retirement” cruise down the Potomac. Could have done what he said he’d do: take some vacation, retire, and live off a $3,600-a-month pension. No more deception. Just walk away knowing that, for more than a decade, he’d fooled everybody.

But that wasn’t enough. He exploited the office’s payroll system, under which a low-level assistant entered his time for him in his absence. According to Kaminsky, Beale probably told this timekeeper that his CIA work was keeping him on the books. There was little oversight for individual time sheets: a “select all”-type function allowed managers to approve groups of the sheets simultaneously. Beale quietly collected a paycheck for months, until eventually it caught McCarthy’s attention.

Beale and Kaminsky counted up how often he’d used the CIA guise to skip work since 2000. The grand total: approximately 2½ years.

Investigators later put dollar amounts on his crimes: $437,901 in fraudulent retention bonuses, $58,127 for the “D.O. Oversight” absences, $8,000 for the parking spot, and so on. Altogether, he cost taxpayers $886,186.

Beale wasn’t paying off huge debts and didn’t live a lavish life. At one point, investigators asked him if he had a secret second family and used the time to visit them. No, he told them.

On September 27, 2013, he pleaded guilty to felony theft of government property. Three days earlier, Beale had given the court a certified check for the entire $886,186, as if he’d never spent a dime.

• • •

Beale was looking at 30 to 37 months in prison. James Smith, the federal prosecutor, wanted the judge to come down hard on Beale. “The business in our town is government,” he said at Beale’s sentencing in mid-December. Without a harsh penalty, Smith argued, “others might be tempted to become the next John Beale.”

Much had been made about how Beale’s fraud symbolized waste in government, further demonizing a federal workforce in an age of austerity. In a House Oversight Committee hearing on October 1—day one of the government shutdown, when hundreds of thousands of public servants suddenly found themselves without a paycheck—Republicans excoriated Gina McCarthy, who had ascended to the EPA’s top job despite the Beale debacle.

Alisha Johnson, a spokeswoman for the EPA, says that upon discovering the hoax, the agency has closed some of the bureaucratic loopholes that Beale was able to exploit. The 25-percent retention bonus is now subject to an automatic review before renewal. The EPA is also deploying a system in which managers approve timecards individually instead of in bulk and is starting semiannual reviews to ensure that the cap on salaries isn’t exceeded.

Perhaps the most unexpected fix preceded Beale. Six years ago, according to the IG’s office, it became US policy that anytime the CIA recruits someone from another agency, the CIA director must inform the head of that agency and its general counsel. In other words, the intelligence community actually does the type of cross-agency recruitment Beale was supposedly privy to.

“I own this—this is on me,” Beale said to the judge at his sentencing in a low, gravelly voice. Even with his shoulders stooped, he looked tall, commanding, important. He said he was ashamed that he’d sullied the idea of public service, betraying the trust taxpayers put into the system. “I’ll carry that with me the rest of my life.”

The judge asked the question on everyone’s mind: What possibly could have occupied his time—2½ years of absence from work? What was he doing?

“Exercising,” he said.

Doing house projects.

Beale told investigators he would usually get some reading or bicycling done, too.

There it was. John Beale lied for more than a decade and spent the spoils of his charade as anyone else would spend a lazy Sunday.

The judge gave him 32 months.

• • •

The oral history of Beale’s covert exploits was passed from person to person. And to each it made sense. The force of his personality made people inherently trust him, even without any evidence. They believed him, perhaps, because they wanted to.

“For a lot of years, I had done the kind of work for EPA or at EPA that I was and am very proud of,” Beale himself said at his deposition, “and I had earned a reputation for being very competent, very skillful, very truthful, and very honest.”

For some, his mystique—potent as it was—lingers. A few weeks after Beale’s guilty plea, Kaminsky reinterviewed a few of Beale’s colleagues. He found some still intractable.

“Even after showing them the evidence, showing them John Beale’s statement, they told me, ‘I hear what you’re saying, but he’s just taking one for the team.’

“They still believed him.”
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Quote:I can no longer sit back and allow Communist infiltration, Communist indoctrination, Communist subversion and the international Communist conspiracy to sap and impurify all of our precious bodily fluids.

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Tl,dr

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It's too damn "peopley" out there....
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